[For Derek]
Jan. 29th, 2016 03:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theduffI'm eighteen.
Eighteen!
It feels incredibly weird but welcome. I can drink (at least in Darrow I can), I can vote, and I'm considered a legal and responsible adult now.
I'm also lonely, but that's nothing new. There are times I can get through a day without thinking of mom or my friends more than once or twice, but when it comes to big days like the holidays or today, all I can think about is that they aren't here to celebrate and see me through it.
I don't want to mope around all day though so I do what comes naturally when I want company: I text Derek. I tend to bother him a lot, but he takes it willingly and he always manages to make me feel better.
He texts me to come over and I'm out the door in a few minutes, not bothering to dress up or anything. It's cold out, my flannel shirt is warm underneath my leather jacket, and it's my birthday, I can do whatever I want. I get a text from Bitty on the way over and I tell him we can meet up later, and it's not long before I show up at Derek's.
"Birthday girl here," I call out as I knock on his door. "All shall love me and despair!"
Eighteen!
It feels incredibly weird but welcome. I can drink (at least in Darrow I can), I can vote, and I'm considered a legal and responsible adult now.
I'm also lonely, but that's nothing new. There are times I can get through a day without thinking of mom or my friends more than once or twice, but when it comes to big days like the holidays or today, all I can think about is that they aren't here to celebrate and see me through it.
I don't want to mope around all day though so I do what comes naturally when I want company: I text Derek. I tend to bother him a lot, but he takes it willingly and he always manages to make me feel better.
He texts me to come over and I'm out the door in a few minutes, not bothering to dress up or anything. It's cold out, my flannel shirt is warm underneath my leather jacket, and it's my birthday, I can do whatever I want. I get a text from Bitty on the way over and I tell him we can meet up later, and it's not long before I show up at Derek's.
"Birthday girl here," I call out as I knock on his door. "All shall love me and despair!"
